Back to work

Monday was the day I had been dreading since I found out I was pregnant. My maternity leave was up and it was time for Aubrey to start day care. Sunday just seemed like it went so fast because I knew the next day I would be without my muchkin. The tears started Sunday night when Todd and I went to bed and I couldn't help it. I knew I had to go back to work but I just kept asking if we were sure we were doing the right thing. Somehow I managed to get a little bit of sleep before my alarm went off at 5:30. (Yeah, if you know me, you know how hard that was for me to do.) I managed to get us both ready and out the door only 5 minutes late, which is pretty good. We made it to the day care and it really hit me I had to leave her, but I was determined to be strong. After getting her and her things settled, I loved on her for a few more minutes before handing her over to the teacher. Luckily, the teacher started talking to her and got her to grin, so that made it a bit easier to leave. If she had been crying, I don't know if I would have ever left. Somehow, I made it to work tear free. I did go back to the day care during lunch to get my Aubrey fix and she just grinned at me the entire time. Her day care has cameras in the room so I can watch what is going on and that is very comforting. I can't really make out her face and if you don't know what she is wearing, you'll never know it's her. But, I have a good view of her crib so I can see her sleeping and that makes me feel good. She has done really well all week since she's been there. She did get a touch of a cold, but the doctor told us that would probably happen since she's exposed to so many new germs. She's drinking a ton of milk and sleeps A LOT, but she seems pretty happy when I get her, so I guess they are doing something right. The thing that makes me the most sad is that I really only get to spend about 2.5 hours with her a day, not counting the car ride to and from. We get up at 5:15 and leave at 7 AM. Then, we get home at 6:15 and she is out by 7:30. But, she has been sleeping through the night all week and that is amazing. I was in shock Tuesday morning when I woke up and realized I had to wake her up to eat. That never happens. Not that I am complaining. We are slowly getting settled into our routine and that always makes me feel good. I just hope things continue to go as smoothly as they have this week. All ready for her first day of day care